march 2011 mine life story by andy emolove

today,im alone going to sunway pyramid ,subang jaya shopping centre,walking alone....gosh sometime feel so boring if i have gf right now maybe i wont be so lonely & emo..........if have someone we love being together sure is will be happy for i am..... but thing already over .....let it over just don't think back for mine dark memory i had before ............right now i just don't want have any love relationship is just for me....being single life was....so great haha ;) .........hmm but sometime i think & wish if i have someone i love most by my side sure it will BE awsome...hmm study college kinda stress.........that why i try to relieve my stress.................go the place that im feel emo & lonely ...... today my mood.is just fine & good........and feeling sad &crying too........today my exgf she came to my house.........i talk to her...she say that she just back from her school trip 3day&two night......and that time she want come my house my place shah alam...the weather is just wanna have a heavy rain.....so i let her come my house let the rain stop.then she ask my mum to fetch her going back home around 7something plus plus...today she ask me: andy now you got gf?? i just answer.her : no i don't have any one  gf....cause im single...is just don't have anytime for love ....haha  =) i say that my self im emo ;)    just ..sometime i thought of her & think of her..missing her and think that why that time she giving up for me.......i still remember a two year ago ..........i still remember her expression on her face she..look at me wow......i feel happiness.......& lucky got her........i remember first time i met her
ask her out for swimming...... & outing we been dating out.....have been few time..........but just suddenly she just turn away from me....the thing happen.....we breakup....i ask why?? she say sorry andy im don't have any feeling for you....let breakup.....is because my mum..she don't allow me..go out with her anymore....that time my feeling was frustrated & down & mad.......at my mum......my mum angry and shout at my exgf.........say u next time don't ever go out with my son..anymore.. i was so sad & crying & hide in my room ;( ..from that moment........    this is just last two year.................from now on...she just like my own little sister..........i always wish her happy & take care if she met her own love maybe someday......that person just not me....i'm not perfect at all.... the over just let it pass.....don't try to memorise back the left only just the sweet moment we had before ............today i just so down & emo...... sighs......try to forget the pain i had now......>< hmm i hope i will be cheering up again..............my parent why always dont let me do the thing i love.........i want dance & perform at my college & i want write song & singing someday..............now my mum wont let me..dance anymore ....because my dad his worker are quit.........he want me follow& help his work...but the worker matter don't let it & keep.being like that.if not how i going perform & dance at  mine college......                right now i'm always hope & pray that my dad will found a permenant worker to him.......oh yeah i wanna pray for japan & other country that being disaster by tsunami & earth quake............im always ask god blessing on them & showering love to them protect them everyday & pray for them....oh yeah we must love each other.don't care any races or religion.that is me........sometime wondering if my gf is other races........i always hope that..someday maybe haha.........now just dont have any time to get in love....im so busy right now im 19.....im still emo haha XD.............
                      ...  I CRY LONELY TEARS OF SADNESS
                               THAT ONLY MY PILLOW SEE
                       MY HEART IS SCREAMING FOR YOU
                        YOU MEANT THE WORLD TO ME....</3

oh gosh im so emo.....dont call me emo..that just i am emo :) haha

im so emo & down tonight hearing emo music........feel so lonely.......... love me or hate me im still gonna emo :)









MY LOVE CANT LOVE YOU ANYMORE BECAUSE YOU HAVE BROKEN IT </3 before.........u know my mood now is just so down & emo ;)